Say huh?

So you know how when your kids are being obnoxious to their siblings and their friends and then their obnoxiousness turns around and bites them back and with all the mama wisdom impact you can muster you say "maybe the way you've been treating people is causing them to treat YOU a certain way". Anyone know what I'm talking about? Well, sometimes mamas need to take their own advice.

Every day it seems like someone is pissing me off. I say something and it gets chewed up and spit back at me and I don't think I deserve the spit-soaked response. I try so hard to be the energy I want revisited to me. I really do. I think most of the time I succeed. What we have here recently, I think, is a whole lot of technology based misunderstanding and speedy reading/response, and maybe some crankiness and harshness spilling over from other parts of our lives. I am guilty as charged. What I don't really understand is why it all seems to be directed at me (and the above advice starts to needle it's way into my thoughts).

I'm a good person. I love people. I champion the safety and health of children. I'm spending thousands of dollars to become a social worker, a career that is often thankless and doesn't pay well. I have stress. Sometimes I'm short with people. I try not to be. Sometimes I misread. I always try to clarify. I always apologize when it's warranted. I often stick my foot in my mouth. I try to explain my stance.

I don't know if I'm just at another one of those points in my life where so much is shifting that I don't jive with the same people. More thinking is required but I don't think it is me. I think I'm at a crossroads. I think someone is trying to tell me something. I'm trying to listen, I promise.

The moral of the story here is, mamas give great advice. Sometimes it's not precise to the current situation, but it's still good advice for thinking stuff through.