No sir, I don't like it

This whole dh unable to move much less take over any parenting duty thing stinks. It's been, oh, 2 hours, and I'm already over it. How do single mothers do it? Add to that the tears that are just under the surface, the very fine hold on here and now that is slipping. I am sad. I know in my heart that I don't want any more children. Heck, my head even knows that I'm done, but still there is sadness. On top of all of THAT there is a hold on my paypal account. And a hold on my checking account. Paypal says 3 business days. Why? Because I tried to add money to my account. 4 times. Each time it kept saying "due to an error with the credit card processing company we are unable to process, try again later". Well, that was suspicious to them so they put a hold on my $100. Then, because of the multiple attempts to upload money from my debit card, the bank held funds too. So, I have no access to any of our very little money for the next 3 days, Monday at the earliest. I tried calling but the people in India don't know what to tell me. I've got my 4 plus my niece tomorrow so probably wouldn't go anywhere anyway but even if I wanted to I only have 1/3 tank of gas. Not going to get me very far. I don't know what I'll do if Neall needs that prescription for pain. And back again to the chaos overtaking the sadness, for the time being.