Do you ever wonder?

Do you ever wonder where this path will take you? 5 years from now? 10? This is something I marvel at in a "past tense" kind of way. 5 years ago, what was I doing? Where did I expect to be? I'm not really sure there's a right/wrong/accurate answer for those kinds of musings, but it does help keep you grounded. For example, when money is tight I often think back to see that it's been tight before. It will be again. I never imagined surviving countless nights of 4 hours of sleep. I never imagined I'd feel blessed by those nights, rather than cursed. I never considered the possibility of doing schoolwork at 1am on the internet. I never imagined being married to a man, much less married for 10 years. 10 years ago I thought I knew myself and the world around me enough to get by. Turns out I didn't know squat about anything. Life had barely begun for me, a baby at 24 years old. Now here I am, a baby at nearly 34. This is the perspective I choose to take in my life. Some people are unable to stand the uncertainty, unable to leave details up to chance and fate. I wonder if they know what they are missing. There is something to be said for organization and planning. There's much to be said for spontaneity and freedom too though. Be at peace with life my friends, in general. Those day to day trials and triumphs are all going somewhere, even if we don't see where.